It's Hard To Miss

Yes, I see that elephant in the room too.  It's hard to miss!  Our failed match and involvement in adoption process looms over almost all relationships we have.  It drives me bananas!  Hardly a conversation with anyone doesn't go back to adoption, and I'm lucky if I make it 5 minutes without thinking about it.  We're awkward around our friends who have or are done having children and they're awkward around us.  I can't blame them.  What do you say to a couple who wants what you have, but has repeatedly tried and failed to get it?  As much as I love children, sometimes I just don't want to be around them.  I feel like some think I'm the creepy person that can't have kids so she might snatch yours.  Raising Arizona anyone?  I'm trying so hard to preserve my relationships where this elephant is most prevalent, but it's SO hard.  I don't know what to do to make myself feel better or less awkward around these people.  Any suggestions?

Before I sign off for today, let me say this.  Thank you to everyone who continues to make an effort to overlook this elephant and stay in our lives.  I honestly know how hard it is for you to feel burdened by our situation.  Your efforts to remain involved with us through this process are treasured.