Tomorrow is the day. Tomorrow I'll drop Evie off in a classroom with seven other children and two teachers. At 9am I'll give her a squeeze and a kiss and leave her with new people. For five hours she will be in this entirely unfamiliar place with new faces. I don't know if you can tell by reading this, but I'm kind of freaking out. I know that she is in completely capable hands, but I'm not comforted by that when I imagine her feeling scared or sad without me there. I'm just hoping that they get her content in this new routine quickly. Evie is cool when I leave her with people she knows, but when it's strangers she gets really worked up. Hopefully this will help her learn that I can leave for a while, she can have fun, and then I'll come back to get her. Say prayers for us both tomorrow!
I decided to pick up Facebook again. After a 6 month break, I'm going to try to return with a plan to keep it from becoming what ran me off in the first place. I'm going to be heavy handed with my privacy settings. I'm going to block a lot of people who post a. too much, b. too offensive, c. too annoying or d. all of the above. Posting aborted fetuses? Blocked. Complaining nonstop? Blocked. Posting excessive links or recipes? Blocked. Being a prick? Blocked.
I'd like to think that by starting from scratch I can keep a handle on this. It just got too out of control when I left six months ago. I really want to be able to easily share pleasant updates and solicit advice from dear family and friends. I just don't want there to be so much negativity, judgement, and agenda-pushing thrown in my face. Hopefully it'll be better this time, but if not I'll just peace back out.
Headed to the hill country tomorrow for my cousin's shower this weekend. Stephen is staying home with Evie. I'm looking forward to spending some time with my folks and sister.
Happy Day, Y'all.
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